Something nice...

I was hiking in the park today with my favorite little girl and I realized that the entire time I was busy thinking things like "I wish it wasn't so hot, wow these bugs are nasty, and I wish she would walk instead of making me carry her the entire time!"  I wasn't just complaining though.  I was actually having fun and making up songs to sing with her.  I got sad once, but I won't get into that now.  My point is, I only got sad once.  So that is really good.

So that was something pleasant for a change.  I needed it after I got so upset today I started writing a "fuck you i hate you" email.   Before I could finish it though I got a text trying to "Explain"  It was a lie though.  I'm so tired of lies.  And I am tired of feeling like I am doing something wrong by caring.

Oh well.. focus on the nice things.