Wanting To Capture The MomentI reached for some paper, but no pen was in sightso I grabbed a blue crayon and began to write.Filling a whole page with just 2 lines,and moving quickly with so little time.I scribble my thoughts as my hands are still shakingand write about this crazy mistake we are making.I told you I'm trouble you should get away fastand this wont last forever cause nothing good lasts.But I have to admit in a sick twisted wayI've never loved being bad like I've loved it today.I know we should feel guilty and full of regretBut our wicked little secret... I will never forget.
Love SongAs the light fades into darkness a sole shadow moves towards the center of the stage.Bewildered by the silence, she looks around her and sees nobody else is thereHer heartbeats echo throughout the hollow room, providing a familiar rhythm.A whisper of a voice escapes from the shadow and she is relieved she is not alone.It speaks beautiful words, delicious emotions and impossible promises.She believes it all in spite of her own un-trusting heart, and the whisper turns to song.The song sweeps through her hair, stings her eyes and softly kisses her lips.It delicately flows into her ears and once inside it makes love to her heart.It melts into her brain and she digests each word into her tormented body.She can see red lights begin to flicker behind her, and the heartbeat quickens.The song speeds up, the room is spinning and filling with a dense black fog.The shadow on the stage begins to glow and then the image comes into focus.For one brief second she sees the music maker, for
My RetaliationLuscious manipulationyou beautiful creationenveloped in admirationcomplete self acclamationIt was your desperationThat caused this devastationYour silly accusationabout the "blood relation"Without confirmationhesitation or provocationor an explanationyou create this fabricationYour interpretationof this misinformationcombined with intoxicationLed to obliterationThere is no justificationfor your intimidationYour crazy declarationand evil calculationIt's really retardationDespite your "education"Which is in a quotationCause its your imaginationBut thanks for the invitationTo your sick celebrationDespite my irritationI'll say congratulationAnd I hope your molestationLeads you to incarcerationAnd of course damnation.Oh, and thanks for the inspiration!
Tuesdays BruisesSkin smeared with marks,that never seem to go away.Blood soaked sheets becomestained forever with memory.Tears swell sorrowful eyes,tracing lines on cold cheeks.Broken bones halfway healed.Lies left lingering in the air.Another answer-less question,asked after another attack.Why?Soothing suggestionssometimes mend my mind.Momentary weaknessinvites fantasy.Dreams of passion, pleasure,in place of pain.Sadly I wake up.The bruises are still there.
Endless DreamStanding on the edge,of the world, looking down.Suddenly I'm falling.I'm falling towards the ground.The clouds are shrinking fast.My stomach is all twisted.The road closes in,but somehow I miss it.Just before I hit,before I crush my head,my eyes quickly open.My body hits my bed.Lying in the dark,my heart races fast.My thoughts turn to you,to us, to our past.The lost boy you once were,begging for my healing.The way you captured my heart,when I had no interest in feeling.It was like a dream.Abandoned house, I'm alone.Searching, but for who?Someone whose no longer there.Someone I once knew.I miss this person desperatelyI can feel it in my bones,but the search finds nothing.No end to being alone.The house begins to shrink,as this feeling closes in.I open up my mouth,and the silent screams begin.When you chose to leave me,Did it hurt for you as well?Or am I the only one,living in this empty cell?This pain, it stays with me,night after lonely night.Only
The Perfect PoisonIt is everything I wanted.I tried so hardTo beat and bleed the pain away.To smoke it and drink itInto nothingness.I let people hurt meBecause I wanted to hurt.And I laughed when they hit meAnd then cried because it wasn’t enough.Nothing hurts more than losing him.Now I’ve found a new drugIt numbs my heart.It burns my skin and freezes my blood.All I can think about is the high, and the pain.It hurts so bad. It hurts just enough.It hurts enough to make him disappear.And so I’ll ride this high as long as he is gone.And I will ride it until it kills me.Who knew, the one thing I said I’d never dowould be the one thing that saved me.
All That I Had InsideI never thought I'd see this dark place again. Yet here I am, and it's darker and more cold than ever before. The air is thick and it is so hard to breathe. I am walking through a dense fog and I can't see a thing. It smells of suffering and disgust. The poison is seeping into my blood and infecting what is left of my shattered heart.I have always been forgiving, bitter but not vengeful. Always trying to understand the ones who have hurt me. And nobody knows better than you how deeply I have been hurt.My heart, my soul, my protector, I let you have a piece of me that I never expected to give to anyone. You took it and destroyed it. There is an unfamiliar passion growing inside me now. I have no choice but to welcome it, as hesitant as I am to do so.Embracing the truth of the fool I have been, I sit here bewildered. Love and happiness are no longer part of my life, and I can accept that. It's what you want after-
AftershockIt’s like a storm.He touches me like lightning, and I feel the electricity.Sparks exploding around our bodies every single time,yet every time he shocks me.He is the rain pounding on me, pouring into me.And my screams of pleasure, the thunder.It’s like a volcano.He is so hot, smoky red hot lava hot.Spicy, sizzling, blistery heat, always raising my temperature,and I melt when I am near him.Burning me with his passion, and then he erupts,setting a blazing fire inside me.It’s like a tornado.Strong, and powerful, my heart races when I see him.He plays with me, my head spinning like a carnival ride,until I beg him to let me get off.And he gets me off with dumbfounding ability,leaving complete destruction in his path.It’s like an earthquake.Rocking me, he shakes up my world.His violent vibrations making me quiver,as the walls come crashing down around us.And when it’s all over I continue to tremble for hours,wit