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Sometimes, I thank God that I cannot smile. Days like today, happy would just be too difficult to fake. I'm not depressed, I'm just in pain. Depression is a mental disorder, and pain is what happens when you get hurt. I am hurting a lot lately, but that is life. Isn't it?
Life is being terrified. It is wondering every night if tomorrow will be the day that the guy you live with finally kills you. You don't want to die but sometimes you just wish he would go ahead and do it so you won't have to suffer anymore. And the people you confide to, they don't understand. It's easy to say it, but you can't be the reason your kids father is locked up. What would that do to them?
Life is when the one person you loved more than anything tells you that you would make a good whore, because you want attention. Then you beat yourself up for saying you needed attention when what you really wanted was attention from him. He hides that piece of yourself you gave to him and you couldn't get it back if you wanted to. Yet without it, you are incomplete.
Life is what happens when you sit by the phone waiting for your test results to come back so you can find out how much of your body the cancer has destroyed this time. It doesn't end. Not Ever. They cut you and then they poison you and then they cut you and then they poison you, over and over and over. But you never fucking die, because that would be too easy. And life is not easy.
Life is bills you can't pay. Life is people you can't stand. Life is desires you can't afford. Life is dreams that never come true and nightmares that do.
It's not all bad though. Once in awhile something happens that makes you stop feeling sorry for yourself and realize you really are lucky to be alive. Today is just one of those days where the good stuff didn't happen and I feel buried and suffocated under all the bad.
Life is being terrified. It is wondering every night if tomorrow will be the day that the guy you live with finally kills you. You don't want to die but sometimes you just wish he would go ahead and do it so you won't have to suffer anymore. And the people you confide to, they don't understand. It's easy to say it, but you can't be the reason your kids father is locked up. What would that do to them?
Life is when the one person you loved more than anything tells you that you would make a good whore, because you want attention. Then you beat yourself up for saying you needed attention when what you really wanted was attention from him. He hides that piece of yourself you gave to him and you couldn't get it back if you wanted to. Yet without it, you are incomplete.
Life is what happens when you sit by the phone waiting for your test results to come back so you can find out how much of your body the cancer has destroyed this time. It doesn't end. Not Ever. They cut you and then they poison you and then they cut you and then they poison you, over and over and over. But you never fucking die, because that would be too easy. And life is not easy.
Life is bills you can't pay. Life is people you can't stand. Life is desires you can't afford. Life is dreams that never come true and nightmares that do.
It's not all bad though. Once in awhile something happens that makes you stop feeling sorry for yourself and realize you really are lucky to be alive. Today is just one of those days where the good stuff didn't happen and I feel buried and suffocated under all the bad.
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No Turning Back
"You're sure you know what you're doing, young lady?"
"I'm sure."
"And you're certain you want to go through with this?"
". . . Yes."
A sly grin. "Right this way."
The tall, wiry man steps out from behind his desk and motions me to the back of his dark, dusty shop. I'm only slightly hesitant in following, wondering suddenly if this isn't the kind of situation in which a girl might be taken advantage of. But amidst the shelves and shelves of ancient objects, I catch a glimpse of a thin-bladed samurai sword to my right, and reassure myself that, were Mr. Beanpole here to try anything funny, I could lunge for t
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Falling asleep
I lie on my bed at the end of the day,
Letting all my troubles just drain away.
An intimate time I can look forward to
By bidding the world a warm adieu!
I close my eyes and say a short prayer,
Thanking God for all I hold dear.
Into the silence I slowly fall,
Just then a mosquito decides to call!
Its tiny wings create this horrendous sound,
So under the sheets I go, where I can't be found.
This hide and seek I always win,
Till it flies away in a beaten tailspin.
Finally now I can get some sleep.
Maybe even count some white fluffy sheep.
I take a deep breath when I felt a slight tingle
Under these sheets I was baking, medium rare and si
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Something/Sacrificial Lamb/Loveless
I'm defeated as you replace me
With your control over using abuse.
No, sit back down; listen to the
Sounds of my shut mouth.
Who are you
(To tell me I'm powerless?)
Who will you
( Get your satisfaction from?)
I can be your; I will be your
sacrificial lamb.
I can be your nothing;
Your loveless something.
I can be your nothing;
Your loveless something.
Infect me with your heartless eyes;
You're fatal and you're not able to -
No, depress me, I dare you.
For my mind isn't stable
Who are you
(To tell me I'm powerless?)
Who will you
( Get your satisfaction from?)
I can be your; I will be your
sacrificial lamb.
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I had a rough week!
I though of this while driving the other day, then "Champagne Supernova" came on the radio and I stopped crying and started screaming the words along with the song. I say screaming cause I can't sing. Anyway, the title came from that and it seemed to fit the idea.
That's all.
I though of this while driving the other day, then "Champagne Supernova" came on the radio and I stopped crying and started screaming the words along with the song. I say screaming cause I can't sing. Anyway, the title came from that and it seemed to fit the idea.
That's all.
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this made me really sad you always got me though, never forget you are still awesome, no one and nothing can take that from you