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Sometimes, I thank God that I cannot smile.  Days like today, happy would just be too difficult to fake.  I'm not depressed, I'm just in pain.  Depression is a mental disorder, and pain is what happens when you get hurt.  I am hurting a lot lately, but that is life.  Isn't it?

Life is being terrified.  It is wondering every night if tomorrow will be the day that the guy you live with finally kills you.  You don't want to die but sometimes you just wish he would go ahead and do it so you won't have to suffer anymore.  And the people you confide to, they don't understand.  It's easy to say it, but you can't be the reason your kids father is locked up.  What would that do to them?

Life is when the one person you loved more than anything tells you that you would make a good whore, because you want attention.  Then you beat yourself up for saying you needed attention when what you really wanted was attention from him.  He hides that piece of yourself you gave to him and you couldn't get it back if you wanted to.  Yet without it, you are incomplete.

Life is what happens when you sit by the phone waiting for your test results to come back so you can find out how much of your body the cancer has destroyed this time.  It doesn't end.  Not Ever.  They cut you and then they poison you and then they cut you and then they poison you, over and over and over.  But you never fucking die, because that would be too easy.  And life is not easy.  

Life is bills you can't pay.  Life is people you can't stand.  Life is desires you can't afford.  Life is dreams that never come true and nightmares that do.  

It's not all bad though.  Once in awhile something happens that makes you stop feeling sorry for yourself and realize you really are lucky to be alive.  Today is just one of those days where the good stuff didn't happen and I feel buried and suffocated under all the bad.
I had a rough week!

I though of this while driving the other day, then "Champagne Supernova" came on the radio and I stopped crying and started screaming the words along with the song. I say screaming cause I can't sing. Anyway, the title came from that and it seemed to fit the idea.

That's all.
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:iconbroken-blues:
Broken-Blues Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012
this made me really sad :( you always got me though, never forget you are still awesome, no one and nothing can take that from you :tighthug:
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:iconmysocksrock:
MySocksRock Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012
:hug: thank you. :)
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:iconsammur-amat:
Sammur-amat Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012   General Artist
You had me at the first line! :XD:
Congratulations on the well deserved DLD, lovely! :huggle:
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:iconmysocksrock:
MySocksRock Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012
Thank you so much. :)
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:iconsammur-amat:
Sammur-amat Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012   General Artist
You are most welcome, dear creature! :aww:
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DailyLitDeviations Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2012
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MySocksRock Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2012
:) sweet!
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:iconcontradictory55:
Contradictory55 Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2012  Student Writer
:tighthug: Oh shit.... this is just... oh....
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:iconmysocksrock:
MySocksRock Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2012
:) :hug:
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:iconcontradictory55:
Contradictory55 Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2012  Student Writer
:glomp:
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Jack-of-mask Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hmm... I have felt like this before. but where you or at least or words shunted the pain onto a work of art. I think that i have shunted a bit to much on my family and friends. I respect the way you wrote this
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:iconmysocksrock:
MySocksRock Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012
Thank you. That is why I'm here.. this is the best way I can deal with my emotions. :)
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:iconstung1010koth:
stung1010koth Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012  Professional Photographer
:love: :tighthug:
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:iconmysocksrock:
MySocksRock Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012
thanks.
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:iconjaybird101:
Jaybird101 Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012
Life's a bitch, but I think you know what to do here
so I'll just say this is a very emotionally trying piece
and you expressed it well.
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:iconmysocksrock:
MySocksRock Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012
Thanks.
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:iconjaybird101:
Jaybird101 Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012
Yep :)
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:iconcarminedevian:
CarmineDevian Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012  Student Writer
A really fine one, I like it a lot
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:iconmysocksrock:
MySocksRock Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012
Thanks.
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:iconcarminedevian:
CarmineDevian Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012  Student Writer
why dont as much as we did? I miss those conversations
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:iconmysocksrock:
MySocksRock Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012
I had a very busy and depressing week. I had a huge paper that I had been working on for 5 weeks due. And I started a new class. I'm sorry. But I was thinking of you yesterday I had to go buy a birthday present for my friends 4 year old.... guess what I got for her?
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:iconcarminedevian:
CarmineDevian Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012  Student Writer
oh my god please dont say you thought of me when you bought the 4yrs old something from MLP?
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:iconmysocksrock:
MySocksRock Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012
I did. haha
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:iconcarminedevian:
CarmineDevian Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012  Student Writer
Most awesome gifts
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:iconmetall-engel:
Metall-Engel Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Oasis can brighten anything up!
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:iconmysocksrock:
MySocksRock Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012
I hadn't heard that song in so long I forgot the healing powers it had. ;)
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:iconmetall-engel:
Metall-Engel Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Healing powers, much agreed! :D
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DragonsChest Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2012  Professional Writer
I can relate for sure. Some days I wonder why I even got out of bed... :hug:
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:iconmysocksrock:
MySocksRock Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012
I usually get out of bed because I always have a three year old sticking her feet in my neck or my back. ;)
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:icondragonschest:
DragonsChest Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012  Professional Writer
Mine are 10 and 12, but they still are good at getting me up... :lol:
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